Gerko's Weblog

Sunday, June 30, 2002

Well ... damn ... Still don't feel like writing ... and I'm in no good mood either.

Don't really know why I'm so down now ... maybe because I haven't been writing ? ... I dunno ... I don't even care.

I suppose you could consider this blog closed untill further notice. ... I'm not going to bother myself with it anymore untill I feel like writing stuff down again. I'm sorry, but I just can't. And just trying to keep up that farce "Yeah, I have a blog and I should be writing in it" doesn't work. It'll only bring me down even more.

*sigh*

Fuck it.

Saturday, June 29, 2002

Well, I've got stuff to write about ... quite some, actually. ... But I think the 'notwritinganymore-itis' is still in my system, kinda ...

But first some important news !

My youngest sister, Leanne, is going to appear on national television in about 40 minutes.
For those dutchies here, reading this, on time, feel free to tune in on RTL 4 : Tritskids, at 12:10 pm.

It's a kind of lame children's quiz, from what I can gather, but I'm going to watch it anyway. And tape it too.

.... Well, I certainly contracted a severe case of 'notwritinganymore-itis' ...

Sorry, I'll see what I can do later today. (Tomorrow, actually ... but ... egh)

Tuesday, June 25, 2002

Gah !

I'm 19 years old now ...

... feel free to add 9 months, if you feel 'inside the womb'-time counts as well ...

... Eh ... Hrmmm ... ... eh ? ...
Uhm ... ooooohkay ....

Monday, June 24, 2002

Daily Dan !

*yawns* ... again, not much to talk about. ...
Well, that, or 'just not in the mood to talk' ... ... Didn't go to college today. I will tomorrow though. Hrmmm ... haven't done any homework either. Kind of spent the day doing nothing. ... I remember having a dream, though ... Although I can't really remember any details (or at least, not details that I can string together to form sentances about) .. it's setting was in the Fallout universe though ... that post-nuclear wasteland ... ( *loves it* )

... *pfffffffft* ...

Scariest thing though ... I've got about 13 minutes left as an 18 year old ...

Time to think about what I've done, experienced, learned this past year ... Hrmmmm ...

And suddenly, I had abandoned my blog for two days ...
*gasp*
... Sorry people, don't know why I did that. *shrugs*

Saturday's Daily Dan !
Sunday's Daily Dan!

In more shocking news, just two more night's sleep (still gotta sleep sunday - monday) and I'll turn 19 ... ... feels ... unreal. Maybe I'll feel differently afterwards ... but now ? ... egh ... no anxiety, no nothing. ... I dunno ... Not going to celebrate it with family/friend till next weekend. Although my roommates in Vlissingen have something planned. (nothing too special, though, I think).

Don't really have anything to talk about, really ... lost my microphone today. (Janked it out of the headset 'cos it didn't work) ... I'm thinking about asking for a last-minute replacement for my B-day. ...I'm kinda bored. ... Talked a bit about stuff on MSN and ICQ with people ... .... *shrugs* ... I'm tired too ...

I had planned to do some homework this weekend. ... I didn't do any. I guess I'm in a bit of trouble now. ... Not that I care ... *shrugs* ... Well, G'night, I guess.

Friday, June 21, 2002

Hee-Hee ... found an image of my watch.

Sheesh, I'm stupid, but here it is, my little lovable thing.

At college now. Bored. Got a test to study for that I have 4 hours from now. Somehow, my current classes aren't ... happening. or whatever. I dunno, nor do I care anymore. *sigh* ... Oh well...

No remembered dreams last night. *yawns* I actually kind-of woke up early today. Which is good, I suppose. But now I'm tired again. ... *yawns again*

...
Daily Dan!

It's late .. but I don't feel like sleeping, or studying, so I guessed I'd write some stuff down here...

"Party" was Ok, I guess ... almost everyone went out to some bars and such afterwards, but I have school tomorrow, and stuff, so ... *shrugs* ... Oh, and now it's officially June's birthday. Even here, for me. So another round of congratualtions! ... Egh, I'm even too bored to write anything substantial down here. I should go make up my bed and get some sleep.

Oh, wait ! ... I completely forgot something else, too ! ... last wednesday was the one-month aniversary of my weblog. ... Damn, time goes fast.

Thursday, June 20, 2002

Oh yeah, forgot to mention !

My days of grieving are over !
Mom gave me an early birthday present today ...

*looks lovingly at his wrist, enclosed with his old trusted casio twincept watch, with a new battery*

Oh, beatiful day ! ...
*looks outside* .... Well, not that beautiful ... but ... Egh .... had to spoil the moment, eh ?

In other old news, I added 56 minutes worth of MP3's to my playlist yesterday. Finally decided the soundtrack from the game Fallout was good enough to put in my playlist, so I dug around in some old files, found the acm2wav.exe converter, unpacked every *.acm, then encoded all of 'em again into MP3's and proudly added 'em to my winamp playlist.

104 files, running for 6 hours, 34 minutes and 35 seconds. ... Whee !

Well, I was pretty pissed off last night ... The BBC decided to show Falling Down "At a later date", because they thought it'd be cool to show a replay of some 1970-something football (soccer) game. ... And if you know how much I don't care about football, you'll know how pissed of I was.

Daily Dan ! ...

Had some serious problems waking up this morning. Didn't get out of bed till 2 pm. ... College ended around a quarter past twelve. .. oops ... On a slightly brighter note, I remembered three dreams from tonight I woke up ... yay ! ... But I pretty much forgot 2 of 'em ...

't was about the first episode of Blackadder II, one of the episodes I haven't seen, but I do know a bit about the story. ... So my brain started to think up a scenario for itself. And the result ... well ... a really crappy show ... kinda funny, and about equally stupid as the real show (although differently) ...

Oh, and June told me off today and said my blog had become complacent ... boring ... ... sowwy ... But it's true, I haven't been writing anything 'good' // interesting stuff lately. And I'm procastrinating writing stuff down, too ... I still have bunches of rants to write down, 3 dreams I haven't written down here, and .... *ugh* ... maybe it's because this blog has become more as a window to talk to the world instead of a place to rant about myself, or issues I'm concerned with. ... it's become something of a ... duty ... or something. A have to ... and well, I'm no good with that, really ... *shrugs*

Meh ... I'll see what I can do. ... As a first step, I'll go re-read my first weeks or so of posting, and try to really figure out what, where, how, and perhaps even why I changed my writing style. Confirm my suspicions above, or see if it's something else.

... Also, today, I went out and ordered myself a passport. Things are kinda pricey (€33,35), but I guess it's ok. I can pick it up in a week or so. My family's going on a vacation to Tschechei (You don't even wanna know how it took me to find the right spelling, but I think I got it) this summer holiday, and .... well .... I think I'm coming along. Not really sure, 'cos I don't really want to come along. Then again, there's nothing really to stay home for. And it'd be good for me to just "get out" every now and then ... So, yeah, I'll come along. .... two weeks without an internet connection ... I hope I'll survive the withdrawal ... We'll be leaving July 5th, so I've got a little time left ...

And I'm having a semi-party tonight. room-mate is celebrating his 21st birthday today ... ... Means I'll probably have a beer. ... And if they're really pressing me (nah, they're not that kind) I might even have two. .... But no more. ... I'm not an alcohol abstainer, but I'm not about to let myself get drunk. (Just looking at other drunk people should be a good enough reminder as to why not. Besides, it's unhealthy ... ) ... Nor am I anywhere close to asking a beer for myself, but ... meh ... if it's offered to me, I don't really see the harm in saying " Ooohkay " for that one beer. .... I still prefer H2O though... but ... *shrugs* .... *still thinks of himself as innocent* ... At the same time, I guess I'll go celebrate June's birthday. Even though it's not June 21st yet here, I think it is in Malaysia...

So June, congratualtions with your 17th birthday ... *grins*

She also said she and Doug had a surprise for me ... but she wouldn't really let anything go about it. (not that I pressed *that* hard) ... Well, aside from that I probably won't find out for a long time. .... Real nice, June, telling someone "Hey ! I've got a surprise for you ! ... But you're not going to find out till Hell freezes over .. "

Thanks a lot

*grins*

Wednesday, June 19, 2002

Daily Dan ! ...
Talking about Daily Dan, Doug's renaming the the files and all, so I'm going to have to start editing stuff to get the links working again. Don't panic if some links suddenly stop working.

Heh, I'm starting to like the current subject at college : Assembly for the Motorola 68000 Microprocessor ... .. For those uninitiated, Assembly is a low-level programming language. "Low Level" meaning it's pretty close to the code that the computer/microprocesser works with itself. ... Yay ! ... Well, I'm still no good at ... but it's kinda fun... uh ... yay !?

Again, I'm going to ask the dutch people here to watch Falling Down on BBC1 tonight. ... starts around 11:30 pm. ... It's not a perfect movie or anything, but ... well, it's intriguing, and somewhat disturbing. According to the box cover, it's about

The adventure
  of an ordinary man
    at war with the
      everyday world

... Meh, anyway ... I think it's movie worth watching, at least once ... Got quite some social commentary and all ...

*shrugs*

Oh, dinner's ready. Gonna go eat.

Well, The Order board's back to normal, now ....

Furthermore, I'm bored, and I'm going to get some sleep.

Nighty-night.

Tuesday, June 18, 2002

*Jikes* ... seems like The Order got invaded by evil demon kitties from hell ... Argh !.. The horror ! RUN AWAY !

Not to be confused with Daily Dan !, who is not an evil demon kittie.

I went to college, but I got out of bed waaaay too late, so I missed the first few hours of class. Didn't really matter that much, though. ... For the dutchies around here, if you haven't seen it yet, I suggest you go watch As Good As It Gets tonight. SBS 6, 8:30 pm. ... It's pretty good. ... Now that I'm suggesting things to watch anyway, I'm also going to suggest watching Falling Down wednesday, on BBC 1, at 11:35 pm. (that's late, I realize) ... I think it was on dutch TV some time ago as well, though. But if you haven't seen it, I suggest you watch it. ...

Hrm ... that's about it, I guess ... For now.

Monday, June 17, 2002

Again, sorry people ...

Daily Dan !

... Not all that much else to tell ...
There's a few things, but I'm tired, and I'm going to take a shower.

Sunday, June 16, 2002

'tis a sad day today ...

My watch (a casio twincept) gave up the ghost today. It's batteries died. ... I loved that thing. I already noticed some weeks ago that the LCD part of the thing didn't 'light up' as much as they used to, but I thought it would last another few months. I guess it didn't ... :'(

But I'm asking my mom to get it's battery renewed for my birthday ... (June 25th, so that's soonish) ... But I don't know how I'll be able to get through the next 9 days without a watch around my wrist. I feel severely handicapped.

In other news, I still don't feel like writing anything else down. ... =P

Daily Dan !

... Eh, for the rest .. I remembered two dreams tonight ... yay ! ... *blinks* ... ... Uh. that means I have to write about 'em, don't I ? ... *doesn't feell like writing 'em down*
... Later ... Got real-life stuff to do. (Finally, a legimate excuse !)

Agh, and my head hurts ...

Ah, yes, Yesterday : ... Uh ...make that yesterday's yesterday, 'cos the clock passed 0:00 ... hrmm ... Friday, then :

And again, I didn't go to college. Dammit ! .. Why can't I just get up, out of bed, for that less-than-half-a-mile walk to college and sit down there and actually do something .... !? ... AAAARGH ! ... Why am I so fed up with college that I can't even get myself to go there for almost an entire week ? I mean, physically, I haven't been feeling too great ... but ... it's not nearly bad enough to stay home for .... Oh well ... *raises imaginary glass* .. Here's to monday ...

As for what happened Friday evening : I went out. More or less. 3rd time ever ( not counting possible past lives :-þ ) ... And it was just as .. uh ... something ... as the other two times. ... It wasn't "bad" ... and "boring" isn't the right word either (although it comes close?) ... Not really sure what was wrong with it me, but it's just ... "not me" ... or something ... Maybe it's an aquired taste ... but I just (and I don't think I can really help it) detach myself from the scene ...

My attention drifted to the scenery. At the entrance, I admired an advertisement poster for a 1930-something Old Timer. Once inside, I studied the boxes that create the lighting effects, and when I was done with that, I kept myself busy with the printing on some beer bottle. ... There was also something about the heating system ... And for a while I was overcome with some nostalgic feeling, when I remember that the room I was in at the time was the same room in which I saw "Little Nemo" oh-so many years ago. ... Heh ...

I think my high-point of the evening there was when they played "Country Road", to which I knew some alternative lyrics thanks to some book (Michael Crichton's "Timeline") ... which I happily sang along (in my mind) ...

"Quantum foam, makes me roam
To the place I belong
Old Black Rocky, country byway
Quantum foam, it's on roam"

Nor was I capable of 'moving to the music'. ... I mean, sure, I'm no good at it period, but at least I can tap my foot, or move my limbs. (Hey, I even wave my arms in the air when Vanity Fare's "Hitchin' a Ride" comes up on my playlist. 't is the background music for Doug's very first Keegan's Truck Flash series ... and I wub Keegan's Truck at least as much as I wub Daily Dan ... (if that link doesn't work, try this one) ... )
I practically stood still like a pillar.

And basicly, that's how it went the first two times as well ...

I suppose 'going out' is an aquired taste. Just something you have to get used to. ... Just like smoking. ( Uh ... nevermind ... *is still very innocent* ) ... but I'm not really sure ... I totally lack a 'crowd mentality'. When I'm in crowds (3 isn't too bad yet, but 4+ and it starts getting bad), I turn into an observer. Detached from the group, as such, my attention drifts to other things, keeping only half an eye on the crowd. (... Not really, not always. I tend to stay observant of the crowd too. I just don't mingle, join in with it) ... it's not really 'shyness' that keeps me from joining in ... it's not that I don't dare, or that I'm concerned about how other will think of me. It's not that ... not really. It's like it's ... impossible ... (It feels more like an impossibity than a lack of courage) ...

I mean, I don't lack the courage to draw attention to myself. Sometimes I can pull off some acts, and be the center of attention for awhile. And that comes naturally as well ... but it's not really two-way communication. It's me->crowd, or crowd>me. but not ... me<-->crowd. ...

But it's not just a problem I face when 'going out' ... I get it when just talking to some people in real-life. In Vlissingen // Flushing, we tend to have 'after-dinner-talks' ... I hardly ever say anything. ... And it's not even restricted to 'real-life' ... Even when in chatrooms, I tend to move to the background. The larger the crowd, the more silent I become. ... in a 3 people chat, it's not too bad yet, but any more and it becomes very noticable. ... Funny thing, though, I don't have any problems talking one-on-one with more that one person at the same time. ...

Meh ... there's some more, I guess but I'm tired ...

*yawns*

Saturday, June 15, 2002

Eek ! Sorry people.

Yesterday's Daily Dan!
Today's Daily Dan!

... Eh ... I've got stuff to write about ...
Uhm ... *thinks*
Feel free to yell at me if I'm not writing it down 'soonish' (today). ... (as in, spam me with e-mail, bug me on MSN (same as my e-mail addy), call me or just comment down here.)

Thursday, June 13, 2002

And again, I didn't go to college .... Dammit ! .. Why didn't I just go ? Oh well ... I'm going tomorrow though ... *gulp* ... I remember something about my dream this night/morning, but it's very fuzzy. It were two woman talking at some table ... I think one of 'em was Elise, and the other Quasoir, a character from Imajica ... Don't have a clue (anymore) as to what they were talking about ... it was just .. weird. I dunno ...

Daily Dan! ... We all love Daily Dan, don't we ?
I know I do, though ... and I made a guest comic for it ! go check it out : Daily Dan Guest Comic ... by yours truly. Thanks to Doug for uploading it. (And ofcourse for Daily Dan itself ...)

Wednesday, June 12, 2002

*yawn* ... A bit tired. ... Already kind-of-forgot what I wanted to write about earlier today ... Well, for one thing, I more or less remembered my dream this morning. Don't really feel like writing it down now, though ... (not really in the mood for writing long pieces of stuff) ... But very shortly said, it was a bit of an action-movie // FPS-game combo, with some strange story. Also, in it, I remembered stuff happening in the more-or-less same setting a lot longer ago, as if it was a sequel to a dream I had before (months, years, even ? At least, it felt like that) ... Never realized dreams have their own memories as well. ... that's pretty cool, if you ask me.

... Daily Dan ! ...

Also, Elise recieved the results of her finals : She passed ... w00t ! ... very w00t !
Congratualtions ! *loves you*

Hmmm ... *smiles*

... Thinking about lots of stuff now, but not really sure if/how to write 'em down. ...
...
... I guess that's a 'no' to the 'if' ... I wonder when/if I'm ever going to write down all those left-over rants here sometime ... I should ... but ... they're just too many, and I don't really feel like starting at any specific one. ... Oh well ...

And again, Elise, Congratulations. And everyone else who passed their exams too, ofcourse ...

Feeling a bit better today. Still not at college though. ... Oh well. Just took a shower and shaved. Hrm ... there's a few things I want to write down, but ... well, I'm going to eat something first. I'll be back in half an hour or so, I guess.

Tuesday, June 11, 2002

I really don't feel like posting today ...

Got out of bed around 1:20 pm. Didn't go to college. I skipped dinner 'cos I wasn't hungry. I'm still not hungry.

Finished "Hersenschimmen" ... was kinda ... heavy ... I dunno. It's a good book, too. I should read more. (Actually, I'm reading enough now, what I mean is that I should keep this up.) ... I'm tired. Maybe it's because I haven't done anything today. I mean, I left my room two or three times to empty my bladder, but that's it...

... Daily Dan! ...

Monday, June 10, 2002

At college now. Been a somewhat long day, and I'm kinda tired. I'm not really sure if I have any classes left for today ... (Schedule's pretty useless if there's just two people in your class. Doesn't get used much.) ... I've been yawning quite a bit for the last two hours or so. Maybe I should go take a walk outside. Or just go home, and have my walk that way. Still not really eating that much. Pack of crackers late this morning, but that's it up till now. I'll prolly eat something when I get home.

Oh yes, and more Daily Dan.

My writing's been declining the last week or so. I'm not really sure why. Just don't feel like writing that much down most of the time. I've got stuff to write about, but I don't have the motivation to write about it at a time I'm not actively thinking about it. (Or I lack the motivation to actively think about it again and then write it down ... ... Yes, there's a difference ... ) ... Anyway, that's mostly my core problem : Lack of motivation. I just don't have 'anything' to strive for. I don't know what I want. Not in couple of years, not in a couple of months, let alone tomorrow. And I'm too tired lazy to go out and look for something that I do want. *sigh*

Or ... something.

Oh, and my 'counselor' (together with my mom) is going visit me at my room this evening. Just to show off my room or something. (Maybe I should go and do some cleaning. ... I haven't vacuumed in months. Come to think of it, I think it's broken (the vacuum cleaner, that is) ... )

Hrm ... I'm going to need to tell you all something about her (my councelor) some time, I suppose. But that's connected to inner-me subject #2 (Hey !? wasn't there something about that with my mom making a decision connected to it earlier ? ... Yes there was.) ... Anyway, I don't really have the urge to write about that now. Actually, I'm fed up with writing for now altogether, so I'm calling it quits for now.

...

Doesn't seem like I'll be having any more classes today. Buh-bye college, 'ellow student-home.

Sunday, June 09, 2002

Meh, still don't really feel like writing that much. Don't have much time either ... so ... Egh. .. I suppose this means I won't write it down. I mean, I might, but it's not likely, knowing myself. Maybe later this evening, or tonight. I dunno ... Why isn't anyone on-line right about now anyway ? ... I'm bored. Or something. I dunno ... (No, I do know, just don't think there's a good word for it. Maybe.)

Oh well ... ... Daily Dan!. Can't forget Daily Dan.

It's past 2 am now, and I'm really tired, going to hit the sack soon.
Few things happened today (Well, saturday, actually ... but that's still 'today') and I feel I should write 'em down. But I think I'm too tired now.

Went for a walk tonight. ... Haven't gotten our of the house for 'no reason' in years. (Well, that's not true, sometimes I'd go outside at night, but never went out the backyard) There'd always been some destination or something, but tonight, I spend about 50 minutes just walking around. Was / am in a weird mood ...

I'll see if I can scrounge up the will to write it all down tomorrow (and if I can get enough time from my Sis. Homework is still killing her.) It's nothing all that special, or maybe it is ... I dunno ... There's been quite some things I feel I should write down and all, but ... Well, it's just that I'm only good at writing something down when I'm thinking about it at the moment. I'm not that good at recalling my thoughts. Or at least, no good at writing down thoughts I've had (and finished) before. ...

Oh, and I haven't really had remembered dreams the last few days ... Although I do remember having 'em. At least that's a step up from a month ago or so...

Saturday, June 08, 2002

DAILY DAN !!

Friday, June 07, 2002

Forget finishing Imajica this weekend. I finished it today, 9:31 pm local time. ... 't was beautifull ... *smiles*

So, Elise, when are you going to pick it up ? Or should I bring it over ? I'm afraid it won't fit through the mailbox.

Heh ...

Hrm ... didn't go to college today. Other guy wasn't there either, so ...
Oh well ...

104 pages and counting ! Gonna finish it this weekend.

... Oh, and before I forget : Daily Dan !

Thursday, June 06, 2002

Egh ... Turned out I do have classes tomorrow. Well, not really classes, but I've got to finish some project or whatever.

Blargh ... Oh well, no use moaning about it.

Don't really feel like ranting now, either.

Daily Dan ! ... yay !

At college now, not really feeling that good. Test didn't go too well either. But better than last time, though. Got to get back to class in half an hour or so, and I don't want to. Oh well, tomorrow's there's no classes, so I'll be heading home-home somewhat earlier than expected. (Early tomorrow afternoon, probably)

Oh, and I just got the most infuriating e-mail from the Hotmail staff :


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To : gerko2077@hotmail.com

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.... NOOOOOOOOooooooooo !

*runs away, screaming in terror*

Read a lot of Imajica last few days. It's good. Elise is going to borrow it from me in *looks at counter to the left* 221 pages ...

Gonna take a shower, then hit the sack. Again, sorry for the lack of lengthy rants the last couple of days.

Wednesday, June 05, 2002

More Daily Dan! ... Rejoice !

Got up kinda late, so I gotta hurry to get to college now.
Egh... it's raining. Oh well ...

Ooh ... pretty thunderstorm...

/me go bed now, buh-bye.

Tuesday, June 04, 2002

Dictionary.com is back up. ... yay !?

*really likes typing on this keyboard*

*is kinda hungry*

*is going to buy some food in the ... uhm ... place-you-buy-food-at-school and eat it*

The food, that is.

*is overcome with a dizzy feeling*
(No ! Really. Just now. I'm all light-headed. Going for a walk... bye)

Hrmm... I'm thinking the contrast of that last post didn't really work out that well. I dunno if I'm happy with the deal. (Actually, I'm not really happy, but I'm not really depressed about it either. The situation just is, if I can use that lame cliché) It's really meant to be seen in contrast with some other people's horribly F'ed up love-lives. So yeah, I've got the basic tragedy. But no more than that. No loads of extra baggage that make it worse. That's what I'm glad about. Sorta. I dunno.

Or maybe I do, but I don't think it can be expressed in words.

And now, after I put those comments up, my sister decides to send a "bug me" e-mail as well. So that makes it 2 people know. Counting for ... uh ... 3 or 6. or infinite. Hrm... I dunno... should my sister count for more than one person as well ? ...

Does it even matter ? I already put up the darn comments.

Oh, and I'm at college right now. Done with classes, but I'm planning to make some more homework before I head home. Basicly, because I know I suck at doing homework at home. I'm better at it while at school.

On another note, I like this keyboard. I dunno, it just types ... nicely. Or something. Easy. Easier than at home. Comfortable.

And again, a new Daily Dan! ... brought to you by Doug Sauncy.

Sorry for not posting that much the last couple of days. I wasn't really in the mood. Or maybe I didn't have the time. (It's surprising how much you cannot do when you're not doing your homework.)

Got about an hour left before I have to head to college. *ugh* ... I don't wanna. Oh well ... I'll go.

And I'm more or less pissed at Sky Radio 100.7 FM ... hasn't played any good songs since I woke up. .... Hrm ... current one's not so bad, but it played a lot of those songs I find annoying earlier. Maybe I should find a better station. Then again, I think I've found about the only place here in Zeeland where you can get Sky Radio, I generally like the station more than most other stations, and it's a bitch to find the right frequency again on this alarm-clock-radio-telephone-thingie. So I'll let it rest.

Oh, and still, Elise has been the only one bugging me about comments. ... Why is this, people ? Don't you want 'em ? Don't you care ? Do you even read any of this ? ... Oh well, I'm going to put 'em up anyway. Because, as Elise said : "Don't I count for 2 people ? ... or 5 ?" (mangled quote, I realize, sorry!) And yeah, she does. It reminds me of one of those love-quotes found on some site (I was looking for some song lyrics, then I got sidetracked by some huge list of quotes.)

"You may be only one person in the whole world,
But you may be the whole world to one person"

Although that's a bit of an overstatement. But it's true, to some effect. ... It'd be hard for me to think of anything I seriously wouldn't do for her, if she sincerely asked me to ... I think she knows. I don't mind her using that knowledge. I'm confident enough in knowing she won't abuse it. She cares about me, and it's great. Compared to some of the stories of on-line friends, I suppose I should consider myself lucky. She likes me, she really likes me. Just not like that. But that's ok ...

"Just because someone doesn't love you
in the way you want them to,
doesn't mean that they don't love you
with all they've got."

... Eh, right ... enough with the mushy quotes. I don't even really know why I kept some of those, anyway. (I disagreed with about half of those that were in the list, anyway)
I'm going to get some breakfast, gather enough strenght and prepare myself for college today...

But first I'm gonna see if I can get those comments working.

Monday, June 03, 2002

Again, more Daily Dan!.

Hrm ... kinda tired and bored. (Just got up ... ) Don't feel like writing now. Oh well ...

Sunday, June 02, 2002

Ah, nevermind ... June just popped on-line...

Oh, and Dictionary.com seems to be down. @%&#$&^! I liked that site.

Egh ... I'm bored.
No-one on-line to talk to, and all the new threads and blog entries of other people have been long exhausted. ...

I think I'm going to hand over the PC to my sister again, and go read some more Imajica

A new day, a new Daily Dan! (yay!)

So far, nothing really interesting has happened today.

Did have a dream tonight, and I sort-of remembered it when I woke up. But then I ended up in that half-sleep/half-dream state and had another dream, after which I couldn't remember anything of the first. ... Egh ...

Oh, and I've been playing some of a new game. For the Nintendo Gamecube, my brothers bought Super Smash Brothers Melee ... It's pretty fun playing with one of those famous Nintendo characters and beating up other famous Nintendo characters. ...

I should be doing some homework, I suppose. ... Oh well ....

Oh, and I'm going to need more than one person bugging me to put up those comments before I will ... y' all understand ?

Saturday, June 01, 2002

Back home-home again ... Been there for a while too.

Today was ... I dunno, I'm feeling pretty good today. Got home-home by public transport, train, bus and the two ol' legs.
Spend a couple of hours working on the template of Elise's blog, mixing colors and all. (and learning style sheets). Personally, I'm not so sure about the results. ... Something doesn't seem right, or something. Maybe it's the font, maybe it's the overal color composition. I dunno. Can't place my finger on it. But Elise is estatic about it, and ... Hey, whatever makes her happy, makes me happy. =)

Had a rather lengthy voice-chat with June today, as well. Quite frankly, I'm amazed that I was able to pull that off. I don't talk that much easily. Ofcourse, June's going to disagree and say I didn't say anything and she did all the talking (Which is mostly true), but for my standards, I said a lot.

Suddenly getting a déja vù, as if I've done this (writing in my blog, with the same text and all) some time before. Years back. .... I know I didn't. ... Eh ... it's gone already.

Hrm ... that's about it I guess... Did have a dream tonight, haven't got a clue as to what it was about anymore though. There was something with pictures/photographs. (Mug-shots, only, like those in your pass-port) ... But ... well, that's all I remember from it.

And I'm considering putting comments on my weblog. ... I could put 'em there in few minutes, but ... I dunno. Don't know if I want 'em, really. ... Hrm... how about this ? ... if enough people bug me about it, I'll consider it ... How's that ?

It's daily. It's about a cat. A cat named Dan ...
It's DAILY DAN!, featuring Dan the Cat.

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